I wrote this little exert back in May when I had just finished Uni, had no job, living in Jersey and was feeling pretty sorry for myself. I am now living and working in London, for a major designer, with so many exciting opportunities and projects coming up. Looking back on this has really made me appreciate how lucky I am to be in the position I'm in now. Its funny how times change isn't it?!
"Right now its may, which means the hoards
of newly grads are going to haul themselves back to the island any minute and
snap up every available job going. The good ones get the best roles first, and
then what’s left for the rest of us is pretty slim pickings, so I’m attempting
to act fast.
As you can probably tell, I’ve had no luck
as of yet, although I think I’m punching a bit above my weight as I refuse to
go back to shop floors, and I hope I’m not the only one struggling.
As soon as I say Fashion in an interview people tend to
switch off before they even let me finish with marketing. "Oh, I suppose you
want to be working for Chanel with the fancy bags and the fashion shows or a pretty magazine." Well, no. My course involved logistics, accountancy,
internationalization, the economy, consumer behaviour, however all anyone ever
hears, is dresses, shoes, designers. It was no easy feat.
As much as it’s a dream of mine, I highly
doubt I’m the next Carrie Bradshaw, mainly because she’s fictional, and also
because that’s a dream. We are all encouraged to dream, it gives us goals. But
the reality is, most of us are destined to be the next admin assistant in the
photocopying cupboard saving for months for that amazing trip or a gap
yah. I’m also way too cynical, as this
rant might have already shown, which is why I can look at the people who say
“chin up” and “dream big” but the reality is, if you want something you have
to work for it, so I guess I should stop complaining and get to it, because although
I might get stuck making little penguins out of blue tac, its experience at the
end of the day, and I should be grateful for any sort of job.
What makes it worse is that, whilst sitting
at home, perfecting my eBay selling skills (not one to put on the CV) and
watching the dreaded day time TV, my Facebook newsfeed is filled with the lucky
ones who’ve managed to nab their dream jobs. “OH EM GEE, starting the new job
today, eekk!” really?! That’s fantastic, please keep reminding me of your
amazing success and your super duper organization
skills, while I slowly but surely slip into the realms of bum-hood.
I’m not judging those who got their dream
jobs, seriously, congratulations. You are the talented, smart ones destined to
achieve greatness, as Will Shakes said, however, for the rest of us? The
mediocre, run of the mill types? We’re lucky if we have any greatness thrust
upon us. But that’s just it, its not lady luck who’s stopping you from getting
these jobs, its someone with better skills and more experience, don’t wait for
the greatness and don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something. Yes,
that is a quote from Will smith in the pursuit of happiness, going for a will
theme here.
At uni they make a big deal of telling you
of all the things you can achieve with this course, all the opportunities that
are going to open up for you, you leave with a sense of hope and a lump of
giddy excitement in the pit of your stomach to get out there and start a new
chapter as a proper grown up. Turns out the hope is actually naivety and the
pit is pure fear. Naivety of the fact that the reality is you will probably not
get that dream job for a while, and your going to have to work bloody hard to
get there, this has then made you think if that’s what you really want to do,
contemplating the rest of your future, with all its choices, decisions and
problems ahead, there’s the fear. So we can either bite the bullet, or dream
on.
Now that’s been said, its time to get back
on the job site, maybe a new position has been posted in the last 5
minutes."
Its funny because despite saying I didn't want to end up back on the shop floor, I worked for most of the summer in Next, the irony! It also turns out a bit of luck was sent my way to get to where I am now. It may not be my dream job but its a lot closer than I was back then!
Try writing down a rant, or a story of your day, then read it back to yourself months from now and see how things have changed. It can go both ways in how it will make you feel, but the outcome is always interesting!
